as i look back on my past journals, so much has changed. for the good; for the bad. hmm, life is okay. school is just gone to me, whatever, i'm over it for right now. summer is soon, i'm so excited! i get to ride up to camp with my best friend<3 i'm extactic for that! & the rest of summer. i'm closer with my best guy friend, and i've always wanted a guy friend like that. so good so far, right?! yeah. but now it changes. one of my best friends, that i was so so so close with before, is drifting away. she says we are maturing and becoming different people, yet, i feel the same. yeah she's changing. but you are supposed to change along with your friends. she doesn't know how much she's hurting me. i cry every night. she doesn't know that though. i pray about our friendship non-stop, and maybe, this is it. maybe, God wanted me to come into her life and do something, and then for her to leave. idk. but i just feel like she's still supposed to be my best friend. it's not like we're fighting, it's not like we're not friends; we just never talk. i make plans to hangout, but they fall through. i've just been thinking recently. i just have to wait. i think eventually, she'll come around. it just sucks. losing someone you tell everything to. if you're reading this, i love you so much, let's be friends, please? the way we used to. i miss that so much. there's this one part of my life where i'm just always sad. well, i'll just have to wait and pray it out. but i hope something good happens. we'll see.